I am not weak today

This is my best buddy Ashley. 

Going to best buddies make me appreciate my life.

It makes me appreciate the simpler things.

A boy here told me I was pretty,

hugged me 7 times

and invited me caroling.

He is happy to be alive.

And he makes me want to do better.

I love being around these special spirits.

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Life is at it again. I start to expect it one way.  And then it changes. I start chancing my feelings only to see my fears become reality. I can only expect the unexpected.

And one day Gods plan will all make sense.

I already can tell it's for the better. 

I just don't know why it's done this way.

And only time can tell.

I make mistakes every day of my life. But I am learning and growing and I can feel myself getting stronger.

When I am weak, I settle. I let something that isn't good for me creep into my self-esteem and rip it to pieces. I let myself not feel good enough. I let myself leech it's happiness to another being. And that is not how I plan to live my life. 

I am not weak today.

I know who I am.

I am Lauren Elise Falter.

I am a daughter, a sibling, a roommate and a friend.

I wake up happy every morning.

I smile when no one is watching.

I pray to God every night.

And everyday I make mistakes.

Everyday something goes wrong. 

Everyday might not go as planned.

But I have faith in His plan.

And I have dreams for my life.

There is a purpose for my existence beyond petty drama,

beyond cheering at basketball games, beyond boy problems.

I will be happy everyday. 

I will volunteer in orphanages around the country.

I will get married in the temple.

I will adopt a Down syndrome baby.

I will raise a family.

I will impact someone's life.

I want to be better.

I want to love fuller.

And I want to show my Savior that I love Him,

because I already know He loves me.

And as much fun as I'm having in college, I know that there's a lot more that I will live for and that gives me hope when things aren't going as planned. I know who I am. I know what I want. And settling for anything less will crush my dreams.

Every trial is a blessing.

We just may not know it yet.

But how we respond to them, 

is what determines who we are.

I am a hypocrite as I write this, because I know I am not good enough to preach it. But writing it will make me live it. I will write it. I will read it. I will live it. 

I have so much to smile about.

My friends and family are more supportive than I deserve.

Chauncy, Kylee and Kylee keep my heart kicking.

I can't have a sad day when I have these three in my life.

I will cry in his arms during a defeated moment.

I will grumble to her at night about things I'll probably forget.

I will call 123748 times a day.

And they have my back 100%.

I came across this video today. And it made me nearly cry. This guy took on more than I could bear. And he didn't let it tear him down, he built on it. Everybody love everybody.