Forehead Kissing

“Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky his is to have you.... The one who turns to his friends and says, 'that's her.'”

I have been reading this quote since the myspace days. But I find it near and dear to my heart now. When you're in high school, it's all about the emotionless kisses, meaningless relationships and being that smokin' hot girlfriend. As you start to grow up (I'd say freshmen year is that awkward transition of all of that still happening), but it get's to the point where you're done with wasted kisses and pointless relationships.

And that's what's scary. Here's the thing, you have two ways to go now once you start dating, a nasty break up... or you get married. And they are both completely terrifying. I'm not there, I'm still at the date boys step... but hey I'm gearing up for when it gets here.

Yes, I want to get married. And yes, I'd love to have a boyfriend. I don't want the heartache that could be attached. I don't want to find the wrong one. I don't want someone to drop me. It really is a scary thing. 

I love love. And when I read this quote I crave that gentle man described. A man who could just love me, who could just make me feel like his special girl. No other guy would matter. The date tally in sunday school would turn into baby name planning, the blind dates would be turned over to my friends and would I have to get completely ready for every flipping day of the week-- NO! (Part joke, part serious).

When I have a guy who WILL kiss me on the forehead and stay awake to watch me sleep, the little things really make my insides flutter. The little no-biggie moments, like a door being opened, a walk to my door step, a text in the morning... that's what makes my heart yearn for more. I can't wait til I guy tells me I'm beautiful even at the end of a long day...... I can't wait to make enough mistakes and wrong choices that I eventually find the one.