If I had somewhere to run away to, I'd be there right now. If I had someone to run away with, I wouldn't be alone right now. If I could just runaway from all my problems. If I could just escape all my insecurities, if people really saw who I was and liked me... then I guess I wouldn't be on planet earth. I'm about ready to throw in the towel and give up. Why is there a constant need to tear down the confidence of people around us? I don't even know the intentions, I don't know who thinks or said what, all I know is how it made me feel. And all I can control are my feelings. I tried real hard to wake up this morning and smile even though I felt an unchanging unhappiness. And then I walked outside. And I cried my whole way to work. I sit here... and I want to change the way people feel about me... because at this point I can't feel good about myself. I want to go home. I want to take the rest of my day of work off and it's only been 33 minutes...
People don't know what affect they have on others. But congrats, you broke me down. Happy?
Whoever did it should be extremely embarrassed. Low blows are a way of attacking people that are stronger than you. This is what people do in middle school when they feel threatened by someone. Guess what sweeties? We are in COLLEGE. Grow up.
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