The Talk

[Life talk...]

The phrase "Come what may and love it" is seriously easy to live by when you love everything coming your way. 

It's happening just how I want it to, somedays it's not going where I want it to... but I try to just do the things I'm supposed to do and surprises keep sneaking up on me.

Life is amazing because all of the new friends and groups I've been hanging out with. Life is amazing because of spontaneous adventures, late nights, good test grades. Life is amazing because the support of friends and family. Life is amazing because the light of the gospel to direct me. Mainly life is amazing, because I choose to see it that way. Attitude is everything.

I love to be happy. So even the moments I can feel tears start to form I talk my emotions our of it... I can't afford to be sad when I'm this blessed. You know that painful feeling of literally choking down your tears? I have a solution... eat food when that feeling starts to come.

I am excited for my future and for where things are going.

Turn the negatives into positives... instead of thinking I'm tired of immaturity... I see it this way: I cannot wait to move out of Snow Hall.  I cannot wait to live with Kylee this summer. Cannot wait for weekly temple days. Cannot wait for daily pool dates. Cannot wait for bike rides, sunshine... And I can't wait to live with all my best friends next year.

Life is awesome and all that jazz-- but it can also be confusing.

[Guy talk...]

When people like someone, I wish you could know how they felt without being obvious or seeming desperate. When someone wants to hang out with you, I wish they would call you.... I feel like I always have to ask what's going on these days, and its hard to just keep it cool when you constantly have to initiate hang-outs... am I being annoying? Why is it that guys can so easily separate emotion and actions?

My actions are based on emotions... Can't that true with everyone?

My little cousin Sydney was having some girl talk with me yesterday. She's in elementary school and I asked her how the boys are. She said "hot." HA, thata girl. Then she asked how the guys are at my school. I said good and kinda talked about some of them. 

She says, "Does he know you exist?" 

Me, "Yes"

"Well, that is a very good thing."

I shouldn't be so frustrated when I want something to go somewhere with someone... and it just seems like a lost cause because I guess I'm asking for more than I need and Sydney made it a comical realization for me. I should just be counting the blessings that I'm not an invisible girl... that things do work out my way. And besides, I'm REALLY learning patience.

Sydney: "Who WOULDN'T date you?"

Me: "Uhh... the whole school."

 The prophets and apostles made a strong point of telling boys to date in this last weekend of conference......... Honeys, where ya at? Hahaha. I think I realize my problem though... I seem like I'm all about fun... but I have all these feelings tucked away. I put myself in a position to just be friends with most people and then the ones I DO WANT don't get it. Agh................ :)

If all I have to complain about is not understanding a guys mind though, then life is good... cuz I don't know if that is worth even trying for.

[Work talk...]

I got my full time job for Summer. I interviewed for it against a TON of people... and I felt really good about it. Then me and one other person got called in for a second interview and I got it. I appreciate the friends who told me I'd get it. I doubted myself to avoid the harsh feelings of rejection, but the boost of confidence from you pushed me over the edge.

[School talk...]

Utah State, I love you. I love how easy it is to make friends. I love how easy it is to get involved. I love how amazing the teachers in my least likable classes are. I love the bus drivers. I love the parties. I love OSRT. I don't even care if you crazy cops ticket for honking the horn and shut down clean parties, I love Logan and everything it's added to my life.

I'm so high, don't wanna come down.