Check Yourself

I can't wait for summer.

I can't wait to move out of Snow Hall.

I can't wait for most of the immature boys my age to leave this state.

I love guys. I love my father, brother, grandpa, friends... in fact, most of my friends here are guys, but just hear me out on this one.

Let me tell you how my days work. I'm gone ALL the time. I have 17 credits, two jobs, a recruitment team and the night life like you wouldn't believe. When I come home after class or after hanging out I spend as much time as I can on the third floor of my building, limiting the time I have to go up to this dreadful place. 

I don't like being alone. And I don't like feeling worthless. That's what happens when I'm "home." Fifth floor of Snow Hall should be called Snow Hall High School. It's cliquey, it's exclusive, it's unoriginal. And when I say this I'm mostly targeting the guys. I love Heather and Shanna, I love telling Glorya my random stories, I love the girls who are so full of love and happiness. But day after day, there are instances are immaturity, judgements, degrading comments about women and relationships, shallowness, hypocrisy and people being just plain rude. There are exceptions and some guys here I just love, everyone has their days, but today is my day.

I can't take it anymore and I don't even know who this is targeted at cuz I don't know who did it, but harmless jokes are funny, when they are done out of love or it's just a friendly nudge at friendship, but when I'm home for about ten minutes a day I don't want DISGUSTING watery substance dumped on my head. So THANKS for making my day.

I don't want my food stolen.

I don't want my room to be opened.

I don't want my printer taken advantage of.

I don't want moochers taking my hours of cooking & baking.

I don't want a banana on my pillow.

Respect. Learn it. Live it.

I don't want to hear your shallow takes on love and relationships. I don't want to argue against your close-minded brains. Where is the love? I want people who can express themselves and correct themselves. I want people who can be wrong, but try not to be. I want people who appreciate life and think somethings cool regardless of what their nineteen year old friends who stay trapped up in their stale-aired apartments think.

Open your eyes and see that life is beautiful.

I have never met more judgmental, close-minded and subjective people in my life. This is branching out of the fifth floor now.

I have had zero, absolutely zero girl drama since I've been up here in college. Tell me where they get that stereotype? Yeah. I've had too much drama one on one with guys and too much drama initiated by groups of guys. Act like men and maybe you'll be considered them. 

I've seen group upon groups of best guy friends be broken down. It's not because of girls, it's not because of dishes... it's because they are the most back-stabbing, drama-starting species. Yes, it's a whole new species... Utah boys. Really, you're just gonna rip apart the guys you've been best friends to get ahead with other girls? Really you're going to completely tear down the people you live with? I'm not impressed with what I've seen on this subject from day one. One guy will talk to me about their friend, that friend will talk to me about that one guy... it's a vicious cycle and it has to stop.

Be forgiving.

Be the bigger man.

The more and more you think you're the one who's right and he's the one who's wrong... is how much closer you are to getting NO WHERE.

Pride. Learn it. See it.

As a girl, I'd like to say trying to get ahead by pulling you friend down will back fire.

I'd appreciate honest people.

I'd appreciate genuine people.

I'd appreciate happy people.

I don't know who to trust.

From day one here at college it's been a downward spin with guys. There have been some absolutely AMAZING ones. There have been hilarious ones and lots are still awesome friends. Starting out naive got me "heartaches and mistakes." Even when I started to think I was smarter by not trying to date freshmen, I got sucked in and spit out. It's not about age, at all. It's about maturity, respect and priorities.

All I ask is that you consider growing up one of these days. And I know you probably think you're the one who's right and everyone else is wrong... how typical of you... I'd ask you to...

On a more positive note, can I say that from this I have REALLY learned to appreciate that non-dramatic boys and girls in my life, the accepting individuals and the ones who really have stuck by my side.

Liz Lewis is one of the most incredible friends I have here. First off, she brings out the side of me that I kept locked away for seven months. She stands up for what she thinks and for her friends. She is the LAST person to be in any sort of rocky situation. She's so funny and I cannot wait to live with her. I love all the girls I hang out with: Ashley, Emilee, Hillary, Megan, Chelsea and Savanna. I have just met them pretty recently, but they have added to the happiest time of my freshmen year immensely and make me a better person while showing me a better time.

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DISCLOSURE: Dear readers, please realize I write a blog almost everyday and this isn't a life-changing event in my life. Also, please realize this isn't about one situation or one group of people. And please realize that you can talk to me about the content if you feel it's not fair to you or another individual. I'm all ears. This is just how I feel and imagine that, i'm writing how I feel in MY blog