Friends

I hid my other blog because it was so negative.

I really can't stand being negative, but in life it happens sometimes.

I can't begin to type how I feel or what happened, because I don't know. 

I thought I got dumped from a relationship I wasn't officially in about two days ago, then last night when I had every opportunity to still be in it I cried my eyes out and ended the night icing my head with frozen dinners.

I don't know how it got to this point. 

When you think you're in love and maybe you are, but you can't be 100% happy...

And it wasn't him. I was wrong about so much, all the time.

Jealous, angry, probably controlling... distance and time causes problems...

All I know is, I need to be a better friend. 

And I need to surround myself in uplifting friendships.

When you are in a constant state of contention, take a step back and just be a good friend.

I love hearing people's problems and listening to them.

I love talking with people and hanging out.

But to be a good friend to someone else is a selfless act,

to be there for them, to listen without judgement, to help them.

Friendship has become so important to me.

Day in a day out, there will be people you meet, 

there will be people at the store, on the bus, people you kiss 

and break up with, but friends ALWAYS are there.

I don't ever want to go through a break up again.

They are terrible. 

And even though nothing was officially I feel like I just did again.

No more!

I need to be a good friend, 

and then no one important to me will ever have to disappear from my life.

Btw, Best Friends are the BEST. :) 
Taken when my hands were still little  & still my bff.

I have found some really good friends at this school to add to the amazing ones I already had. I love just talking to people and also listening. And I know some of you guys read this, so thanks. You make my days. I love you & appreciate you! :)