A Passive Life

My stomach is in knots.

Nothing significant has changed.

 I just have a lot weighing on me.

But none of it can be resolved today.

It's planning ahead that I'm good at.

Not letting life happen to me.

I'm active in my life, not passive.

I want control, when I don't have it.

And I know I can't have it planned in some ways.
It takes time to know.

What career? When things will happen? Where I'll live?
My patience is being tested. As always... and for most of us.

I have nothing but time this week to think about it.

I wish for once I wasn't two weeks ahead in my classes.

But what it comes down to is...

what do I love?

what makes me happy?

And if I've lost that.

I need to find it.

I'm going to the temple.

I want to be calmer, clear my mind.

And stop worrying so much about myself.

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The Lord is good.
I am thankful for family.
I am thankful for best friends.
I am thankful for communication.
I am thankful for food.
I am thankful for kids and a job.
I am thankful for a home.
I am thankful for prayers and the temple.
I am thankful for good health.
I am thankful for life.

Let's find the beauty in every day.
The happiness in every moment.
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