Freeeeeeee

I will never sit here and say I'm better. Sometimes it'll seem like I think that... that silly girl who judges me without knowing me, that stupid guy who doesn't think I'm the ideal body type, that adult who thinks I'm just some immature kid... yeah maybe the mindset will start out that "I'm better" than this person. But deep down, I know that I'm not. Nope, not at all.

No one is better than anyone else. I blogged about this before... and it was kinda about judging. How some people will drink or have sex and do things that you wouldn't do, and because you don't do them you think you're better. Yeah, you're not. But it's not just about the big "sins" or whatnot in life... it's just day to day stuff too. And at the same time, don't ever think you're not good enough for somebody.

The point to the rant above: I'm not better than anyone. 

But/However/On The Other Hand... 

I do deserve better, not a better person necessarily, but how any person treats you. I'm on the road to recovery. And if you feel like this is you too, please join me.

Step one: Recognize what is being done to you.

Lauren, you are being used.

Lauren, you are being played.

Lauren, you're letting it happen.

Step two: Well duh, stop... it! 

Stop being the one to text him.

Stop going to things for him.

Stop being so conveniently available just for him.

Step three: Don't let happiness depend on him.

Be happy for other reasons.

Be happy even when he's not at the dance you thought you'd see him at.

Be happy even when he doesn't call you.

Step four: Realize you don't need him.

I've been doing these steps, and the more and more I follow my steps, the more and more I see step four as the truth. Today, I decided that I was so happy and why? Not because this guy talked to me, not because this guy likes me.... because I can be. Free yourself from that dirtbag and be happy!!! :)