Falling In Love

Love is such a delicate emotion. It's so perfect and full of emotion and sacrifice, but when it's unreturned, when it's channeled toward the wrong things, when it's destroyed, it has the power to really rock your world.

Falling in love with your best friend, the cliche of love stories. Why is it that in the movies, in the books, in the stories... it works out and in real life it doesn't? There's a lot of different point of views I have about this story.

I was in love. And it doesn't just disappear with the click of a facebook relationship change. I fell in love with my best friend. It was amazing. It was ideal. I felt like I could go to the ends of earth with just his hand in mine. But, I learned that it was an immature fantasy and that we needed to grow up. It's not that I need to get my fair share of dates in while I'm away, it's not that he needed a girlfriend he could constantly see... we did the long-distance thing of thirty minutes even before we had licenses. It's the lack of trust and experience, it's seeing there's so much more to learn and so many ways to grow. Falling in love broke my heart.

Nevertheless, I pulled through. I pulled out of my slump. I dated some jerks. Realized how I should be treated and ended up right back on top with amazing friends by my side.

I have best friends. I had one last semester who I loved. I have one this semester who I love. I have multiple best friends who I adore, and will do anything for. Unfortunately sometimes the love I have for them, is not the same they had for me. And falling in love broke their hearts.

Falling in love with someone who doesn't love you back is impossible to feel good about. Falling in love with someone that doesn't treat you right isn't fair. Falling in love with someone you can't be with forever is devastating. When I give someone my whole heart, I want them to hold onto it forever, while I hold tight to theirs.

So, for me? Falling in love can wait until I'm ready to be with someone til the ends of earth. None of this heart breaking business. I long for love... at the end of love movies I want to just rewind and press play so I can feel those strong emotions through the sweet ending of chick flick, I put on my winter gloves wishing I had a handsome man instead to warm my shivers... I can't just chose who I will love and I can't just expect him to fall out of the sky, I will wait.

All you need is love, but falling IN love is a whole new journey.

**I haven't fallen in love with anyone just yet, the topic is just on my mind, as always.