The Choice Is Yours

I've been anticipating this week as one of the 

hardest of my life, probably since I was born.

It wasn't the first week of high school.

It wasn't moving out.

It wasn't breaking up with my first love.

It's the separation of me from my best friend;
losing my twin as my roommate;
sharing my twin with someone else.

I thought about it.

The idea of us getting married.

The idea of us growing up, 

going off to college, 

having our own families and kids...

but I never actually felt it. 

Now, I can feel it.

It'll be a change. 

It'll probably be really hard the days following.

But I am right now my choice is to be happy...

to smile even when I'm hurting...

and when I can... choose not to hurt. 

I don't want to see any negative.

This is a beautiful week.

The parting of two best friends into 

two very separate lives...

Growing up once and for all.

And though I'm not getting married...

don't even have a boyfriend,

don't have a career path or anything going on...

I'm on my own.
It's the start to another chapter.


I got the question a million times the other day:
"How are you doing?"
"Are you okay?"
"I know you're gonna cry A LOT on Saturday huh?"


Believe me, the tears will come...later.
I want you to all know that this week is happy.
This week is exciting! 
This week is fun! 
This week is full of changes and I am so stoked.


It wouldn't be the same without my family or my best friend.
I don't even have to fight to be happy right now.
I am beyond happy with my life.

I just needed this break home.
I needed this break away from guys who don't respect me.
Which is like my ONE reason for heart ache these
past weeks in Logan.... it's getting OLD.
I needed this break away from confusion.
I needed this break away from loneliness.


And now I couldn't ask for a happier Lauren.
I just pray that happiness goes home with me 
and things start looking up there too.


Can't wait to see Kylee and Luke start their
Happily Ever After this Saturday.