Come What May & LOVE It

I have come to realize that I am a Daughter of my Heavenly Father and for that reason alone I should ALWAYS be happy. I know that I can be forgiven of any sin. I know that I can be comforted through every trial. And I know that I will always be loved by Him, so why should I tolerate any less? I have made mistakes in my life, I continue to learn from them. I have had problems with people, but I fix them. There are some things I do that I feel aren't anything to be upset about, but others get so mad.

Who in this world has any right to take away happiness from me? I should be the only one to do that, no one else has that right. It obviously happens because sometimes the people we love hurt us or don't understand us. But no matter what trial I am going through, who got me down... I can always choose to be happy. Look for the blessings from the situation or other amazing things in my life.

The keyword in this entry is SHOULD, there are so many variables that affect that outcome of the day. But in the end I should always have a smile on my face and feel loved for the person I am. 

Today I was driving around, I was pretty bummed out, dealing with boy drama and just would park to kinda cry about it. I was so stressed and didn't know what to even do. Sometimes you do something that you don't think is wrong, it get's so blown up and taken to a whole new level. I feel like what happened today wasn't even about what was brought up, it was an escape from me all together from everything. I felt like scum to say the least, but I don't feel wrong... which is the trickiest part of the situation. I cried, I listened to songs, I prayed, I drove down random roads and just sat there thinking. I felt alone, I felt awkward... I was just having that kind of day. 

Then finally I drove over to be with friends. They are a goofy bunch, and as I was able to just be myself, put my worries aside and get into deep talks about old age and rap-battles, I was able to realize that yeah, I had a rough day, but I have so much more to recognize and be thankful for. I have such a support group that nothing should ever make me feel empty or alone. 

I love who I am (most of the time). There are things I need to learn, times I need to mature, but this is my life and I need to just be happy no matter what.