"Puppy Love"

According to Urban Dictionary, 

Crush: A painful experience, very common among middle schoolers (and high schooler's and even adults to a lesser degree) that involves being obsessed with a member of the opposite sex, being attracted to them physically (most common), or emotionally-- 

also called 'puppy love' 

Legally, I'm an adult... and I can testify that I still have crushes. In fact, I love crushes. They make life exciting and just fun... 

in a pathetic yet hilarious sort of way.

My first crush was Lars... he was a complete jerk to me, yet sitting by him during finger paints in preschool gave me complete satisfaction, in fact it was secretly (or extremely obviously) my goal to always share that paste with him. I had a crush on Ryan for three whoopin' years in elementary school and no I didn't kiss him, or date him... just seeing him and talking to him was enough to keep my pigtails curled. I literally had a "boys to like" page in the back of my fourth grade journal. In middle school I nearly counted seven crushes at a time, but it changed by the week, along with the passwords which were inspired by each one. I love how my "first date" that I BOUGHT at the man auction in high school was made, by the senior boys in the photo booth pictures we got to hang in our lockers. You grow in and out of real relationships, but then there are these little crushes.

Let me tell you why I said my crushes are pathetic yet hilarious...

 I somehow am completely happy when a crush says hi, or waves, or if I just see him in general. It's nice to get hellos from friends and hugs from those special people, but when your crush says hi to you... DAY. MADE. Even if you see no chance of this person EVER liking you or EVER even wanting to start conversation, they somehow just have that happy affect on you.

My first crush in college...it was ridiculous. He's actually one of my way sweet friends now... but he was in one of my first classes and it's like cupid literally put a spell on me. I was memorized by his every move, I studied his style and laugh and interactions. It's NOT creepy or anything, I promise. That's just how crushes are. I got over that crush and still value him as a great person now... 

cupid just must have tons of arrows.

I have had this one for like a month. He will never like me, I can almost guarantee that. And it doesn't surpass the feelings I would have for someone I'm in a relationship with... but there feelings do indeed exist. I can't describe them, but everyone knows what it's like to have a little crush right?? And I'm not weird about it or stalkerish... but I do enjoy taking every chance I can to talk to him. Honestly, tell me you can't relate to that though. I'm going out on a limb to admit all this, so you BETTER agree with me. I'm surprised this particular crush even talks to me... But the little things he does somehow makes little butterflies in my stomach curl my lips into a smile.

Finn Hudson, the crush I WOULD be creepy about. Like "Invisible" by Clay Aiken status.

If I could just say, "Lauren, stop having this crush... it's not practical..." then I probably would, to save disappointment and embarrassment, but it doesn't work like that... Crushes are called crushes because they are basically meant to crush you I think. If it is just a crush it will fade, if it leads to more... then that's the ultimate goal. I'm having fun having little run-ins to look forward to.

Crushes are just silly.

And for clarification, it doesn't make me or you a player or anything, to have "crushes." And don't judge me for sharing my childish tendencies... Everyone has little crushes when they aren't in relationships. It just keeps life exciting I guess. 

Gotta keep that little heart pitter-pattering.

"Crushes happen; it just means you are open to love."

♥Samantha Angel