I need to write a blog mixed with a lot of different purposes.
The first is gratitude. I am thankful that I made it through this week happily. It seemed like it wasn't going to end. Everything I had to do with overflowing with the next. I was stressed, but I will never say I was unhappy. I am thankful that I have the friends I do, to make it through it.
I am here in Utah to learn. I am here to work. I am here to get an education. But I never ever want to lose sight of what is truly important while I'm here and because of the people I know, I will never be so blurred by the work ahead of me that I have to be unhappy or stop living.
Now, concerning the Howl. I am grateful that I was able to meet Kylee Anna Geisler. I wonderful example to me at all times. Before I hung out with Kylee a lot, I looked at parties a lot differently, I looked at the way boys interacted with girls a lot differently. And though I didn't always participate in these interactions, I never saw the problem in them as easily as I do now. And I am grateful that I do see those, and that I have a friend who sees the problem. And that because of her I can go to a happier place... and not have a guilty conscious about choices that I have complete control over.
Let's just saw we shook our groove thang, we broke it down, and we dropped it low, in the back middle circle away from everyone else. And it was more fun than I could've ever had compromising my standards to make the type of boy I don't want to attract appreciate me.
<3
Another thought: not being good enough for everyone.
I guess you just simply can't be.
Hearing that someone doesn't like me... for a reason that isn't who I am... makes my whole heart want to cry. I just want them to see who I really am, and accept that. But jealousy, insecurity, or just plain non-interest in a person's life can make a person just not like you. And I guess sometimes I just need to accept that.
Chauncy tells me when I'm wrong. And I appreciate that, cuz he says it in a way that actually makes me want to be better. I love him.
It does make me feel more conscious of what I'm doing and who I'd like to be representing all the time. Everyone loves Christ, so I need to continue every single day to be more like Him.
He gives me strength.
He loves me.
He forgives me.
And He is the example I need to follow.
:)
Kylee made me be her model.
She's a great photographer.
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