Goodbye - Hello

One year ago, I packed everything into two cars with my sister and entire family and moved to college. One year ago, I said goodbye to my best friends... and turned my back to my high school years. One year ago, was the beginning of a break up that carried on for way too long. One year ago, I moved on from my childhood.

And now I am a Utah resident. I have lived in Logan for over a year. I know what I want to do. I know who I want to be. And my goal is to be her. I am not nearly as big of a baby. I'm not nearly as naive and foolish. But there is definitely still room for improvement.

Logan, UT: My beautiful home.

Watching all the new freshmen coming in, the teary-eyed hug, the phone calls every night. It takes me back to a year ago. Leaving the safety and comfort of your home, it's a huge adjustment. But it's when you finally start living for yourself. And soon enough you'll realize, growing up isn't so bad.

Every place you move in. Every place you move out of. Every place has it's good and it's bad. The people you like, and the people you prefer to never run into again. The accepting people, the happy people, the friends, the support group. And then you move. Moving is great, change is good. But saying goodbye to what you're comfortable with every few months, it has its uneasy moments.

 I enjoy change and moving and goodbyes... because it welcomes all new experiences equally as amazing as the ones you are bidding farewell to.

Why is it that every place you go back to that has a memory, you just get the heart sinking feeling? Wow, that was a good time that I miss. That feeling that makes you replay it all in your end once again.

The past is great. The future is great. It's the living right NOW that makes looking back on the past so enjoyable.

Are you counting your days, or making them count?

Every. day. live. like. your. last.

Be the person that EVERYONE feels happy around.

Be the person that sees when people need you. 

I have so many goals for this year. I want to be so much better and still not even surface the amazing people I have met this summer. 

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Ready? 

James Butterfield. Dustin Evans. Ethan Abbott. Thomas Martin. 

These boys are A-M-A-Z-I-N-G!!!

I look up to them so much. I feel safe around them and protected. I feel their love for everything that lives (except maybe snakes in Dustin's case). They have a love for their Lord, their families, strangers, neighbors, friends and even some of the tougher people to get a long with. I have so much respect for these gentlemen and will miss harassing them on the daily. Special shout-out to my hero of the week. James Butterfield, he always goes above and beyond! And it really means a lot how willing he is to serve his friends.

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Right now we are homeless. Living from the car. And I have no room to complain. I have a home. I have a place to stay until I can move in and I have amazing gracious friends who have offered their beds and food and water to me. 

Chauncy Harrison is the house of both our closets and some pretty needy girls right now. Shaved our legs with his face razor, clipped my toe nails in his bedroom, made him drive me to a job interview an hour before to know where it was, take over his bed, text him orders, use his girl perfume, take up the ENTIRE closet and bathroom... and guess what? I love this guy! Such an amazing friend!